As I look at my entries I see that on numerous occasions I find the words (or something similar): “Wow, it has been some time since I have written in here.”

I am tired or writing that line.  I have been thinking that perhaps I am waiting for these major spiritual moments of understanding to wash over me or something so big that to leave it out would be just plain wrong.

The thing is, each day is a spiritual day, rich in spiritual growth, understanding, and and occasionally misunderstanding.  One day doesn’t trump another day.  It is a matter of what I want to find in the day, what I see as important.  And when I start putting things on a scale, you know, this one is a 5, but this is an 8, but then I had a 3, and so on, I am missing the spiritual day as a whole, in its entirety.  I lose when I do this.  I fail to see connections, links, binding, and more.

Today, I have been to the pain clinic, had needles full of medicine injected into where no guy wants needles to enter, the pain is strong, but then, there is a peace for the medicine works in seconds.  That moment is spiritual in its own way, I went from the constant severe pain, to an open mouthed scream of pain, to a relaxed state.  I get through it by laughter with the doctor, the nurse, and the PA.  If I can make them laugh, well, I feel better.  But more, they feel better.  It hurts them to hurt me.  I respect that it must take a toll on them.  So begins my day. 

If I take that experience with that of my prayers earlier, my time with my cats, saying good bye to my partner, and then whatever is to come, well, I am going to have one hell of a day.  It may not of such quality that Mel Gibson will want to make a movie about it, but it will be one in which I grew and learned.  That is a successful and spiritual day. 

As I look at my entries I see that on numerous occasions I find the words (or something similar): “Wow, it has been some time since I have written in here.”

I am tired or writing that line.  I have been thinking that perhaps I am waiting for these major spiritual moments of understanding to wash over me or something so big that to leave it out would be just plain wrong.

The thing is, each day is a spiritual day, rich in spiritual growth, understanding, and and occasionally misunderstanding.  One day doesn’t trump another day.  It is a matter of what I want to find in the day, what I see as important.  And when I start putting things on a scale, you know, this one is a 5, but this is an 8, but then I had a 3, and so on, I am missing the spiritual day as a whole, in its entirety.  I lose when I do this.  I fail to see connections, links, binding, and more.

Today, I have been to the pain clinic, had needles full of medicine injected into where no guy wants needles to enter, the pain is strong, but then, there is a peace for the medicine works in seconds.  That moment is spiritual in its own way, I went from the constant severe pain, to an open mouthed scream of pain, to a relaxed state.  I get through it by laughter with the doctor, the nurse, and the PA.  If I can make them laugh, well, I feel better.  But more, they feel better.  It hurts them to hurt me.  I respect that it must take a toll on them.  So begins my day. 

If I take that experience with that of my prayers earlier, my time with my cats, saying good bye to my partner, and then whatever is to come, well, I am going to have one hell of a day.  It may not of such quality that Mel Gibson will want to make a movie about it, but it will be one in which I grew and learned.  That is a successful and spiritual day.